. But there is this girl, you know 
. There is always some girl if a day is supposed to be "made". Anyhow, we were flerting for a while, and since we are both older and experienced, there was no trouble in finding a similar language, so coffee breaks, and dart games became a usual part of our college lives.Few times we went out, and had a really good time, couse we like same places, similar people, and have quite similar opinions about life in general. A match made in heaven you could say. Today we finally had some time alone, talking more about life in general, until we decided to make out
a bit. It was awesome, and i felt great. Part beacouse it's my first kiss since i ended three years old relationship, and part of beacouse i felt really good doing it. It was a relief for me couse i finaly ended that feeling i will be always stuck in love with my ex. So i felt great.Getting back on college and listening to some subjects was easier now, and i even asked my professor about one thing that was bothering me for quite some time, and now after he explained that to me, i can finally continue my studies of this subject in which we learn about mechanics and construction behaviors when exposed to different forces. It is really fun subject, in which you learn much about civil engineering buildings and their behaviours to different stresses. In this subject we learn about metal constructions, like in bridges, skyscrapers, and roof constructions in high span areas, like industrial buildings.
After i came home, almost imediatly a friend called me to install him win vista. Omg, i just hate those calls, but what can you do, a friend is a friend, and Vista installation is really piece of cake. So we started installation and went for coffee (3rd one in day
). He's a fun guy, in similar situation as i was, except he's been with a girl for 7 years 
and now he has a new love in his life. He is happy beacouse of it, and i talked to him about my experience, and couse he's more experienced he adviced me to take it slowly. 
. I'm the slowest man around when it comes to that.Reason i'm writing this, is my general hapissh mood today. I'm not extremly happy, just so so. And i like that feeling. I would like to feel this way always. Just to be hapissh, nor more or less. Just as i'm feeling now. Well i know that is impossible, but I'll continue to write here about that things that make my day, and make my mood feel up or down.
I called her today, and we talked on the phone for 2 hours. My ear hurts, and i really hate long phone conversations, but since it was really interesting i just couldn't hang up, and felt ridiculous. Like a 16 years old guy in love. Just i'm not in love. And i won't be for a quite a while this time. Not beacouse i don't like her, beacouse i can't let that happen to me. I grew some weird feeling about love, and strange feeling it is. I feel like i don't want it anymore. Like i want other things from a girl, than that. Things i don't know right words for in English, they are something like, trust, honesty, and understanding (maybe those are the right words), and i feel strange about that. Is it normal, or am i just too afraid to be hurt again?! I don't know now, but i guess time will show.
If you had a thing that made your day, share it. I like reading other people stories, and i hope u liked mine
