Well, I am sorry to hear what is happening in your life and I know exactly how you feel right at this moment because I am going through more or less the same thing as you right now.

I was working in an office for 3 years in an all man department, throughout the 3 years period, I was heavily bullied and being make to feel stupid every single day, my personality changed and slowly I redraw myself from everything and the last insult I had was- I was make redundant.

My self-esteem hit rock bottom and I hate myself every single day. The worst thing is that I injured my back as well, so I can’t sit for long now, the GP in UK is useless. I hate myself for being weak, I hate myself for being ill and I hate myself for being useless and stupid. I look around myself and I realised that I don’t have any friends or relatives living in UK that I can talk to. I lock myself in my room all the time and I started to believe that I am a loser. I can’t talk to my parents either because they think I am a loser and I am wasting my time.

Since, I turned my back from my old job, I found that without working experience and good English grammar I can’t even get a receptionist job in UK and I started to hate the UK public as well.

It has been 7 months and I am still officially unemployed. I work part time though as a waitress to force myself to get out of my room and my house. I also enrolled myself to a part time course to give myself something to focus on. I helped the refugees too.

I come to the decision that I am going to change myself and my life for better, I want to take control and respect my life and I will try to meet my full potential because I deserve better. One thing I understand is that giving up is not a way of living, I know it because i have been there.

Do i hate the UK public now? No, i don't, i realised that most people are really nice, only some individuals that are really evil. ....

So please do something that will make you feel good about yourself. As for me, when I look at those refugees and I realised that there are really a lot of people that are more unfortunate then me, opportunity does not come to your doorstep by itself, you have to work hard for it and I decided to try again.

 

 

 

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depression is the thing one should fight with ,sometimes very easy to handle,sometime very difficult
depression is not something a problem itself,it is actually symptoms,symptoms which state that there is a problem in your life which is causing you this depression,
you have a positive option like simply remove the problem by finding its solution and get rid of the depression ,but it is not always that easy
when you are in a depression the first thing to do is get yourself emotionally cleared]
do all the good things you like ,if you don't find anything good ,create it!
sometimes clearing emotionally is very difficult,so start with physical health,take care of you diet,exercise regularly,so when you get physically fit you can focus more on your problems
just go on a holiday or just chill out really hard at home
start making friends ,this thing always work (espescially opposite sex )
so my friend just try to enjoy your time completely

 

 

 

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Hmm, there's a LOT of good advice in this thread, so I'll put in my two cents as well.

Use a two-pronged approach to deal with depression. Firstly, start exercising. It doesn't have to be anything special - go for a run in the park, sit under some trees, feed the ducks, commune with nature. Stand in the sunlight; - see how beautiful the world is. Relax your mind. You'll find this calming - and the exercise will do you good. Do some pushups when you get home, some kneebends/squats and crunches. Just as much as you can. Your body produces a lot of substances that help you towards a positive outlook when you're healthy.

Ever hear the saying 'a healthy mind in a healthy body?' well those ancient greeks had something there. First start with your body - maintain it well, and you'll find that helps your mind feel better as well.


Then you could start with a hobby or interest - preferably something that doesn't cost too much and involves other people - some artists or poets club if you have that bent - or whatever your particular talent is. And we are ALL talented in one way or another, so find yours and work at it WITH others. You'll improve your people skills, and since you're doing something you like, you'll be more confident with people who like the same thing.

As your health and confidence improves, you'll find that you can face the world better. Give it a shot - you have nothing to lose.

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I've been depressed for the past few days.

This girl has been my schoolmate since we were 16, and we're now college mates here in England, apparently the only one who came to the same college with me. We chat a lot and soon I found out I fall for her. I know I shouldn't. I tried to get rid of it but it only got worse instead of feeling better. The remedy? I told her the truth, and nothing but the truth.

The next morning, she mail it back to me and told me she already knew it and only want to be friend since she doesnt wanna start a relationship at the moment. Well, I was really happy, at least we are friends and better than we're not. That day onwards, with been chatting quite often, more often than I could ever imagine. I was so happy.. I really am... But as all the guys know, the love cannot go away completely. I still love her, but not as much as I was before I told her the truth.

But recently, after I came out from town for easter holiday, she changed. She never talked to me like she always do. She doesnt start a conversation like she always does. I knew I had to take steps. So I started a conversation room with her. I said "Hi, how was your day?" She never replied. I waited for 1 hour not closing that chat room, and at the end all she replied was "Good night" and then went offline. I was so heart-broken. Depress. I feel myself entering into oblivion well. I don't know what has happen to her.

That night, I was checking through friendster and I found a questionaire she did in the bulletin board. Curious, I went and check. As I scroll down, a question caught my attention. "Do u like someone?" was the question. She answered "Like? Nahhhh... Love? Yessss!"

The first thing came to my mind was.. she LIED to me, She lied every single word she said she didnt wanna start a relationship. I was totally heartbroken and I could find myself deeper in the oblivion well. The conversation went like this...

Me: remember the time i told u i like u? i know i said about being good friends.. but i guess u should know it doesnt go away completely
She: i know...its not like i nvr experienced it before
Me: haha.. thx for understanding..
She: np.. what u laughing at huhh??
Me: it's just wat i always put...
She: Hmm.. okay
Me: when u said u like someone... i emo......not ur fault la..i usually blame myself for liking u too much...
She: urhhh... i dunno how to respond
Me: hmm..maybe u should tell me wat u dun like about me as well... i dun wan to stay living in lies only
She: atleast you know i like someone else...there aint no lies man ... -.-
Me: comon' there's definitely something u dun like about me right?
She: youre a friend, youre a guy, its all usual..
Me: hmm.. next time let me know what u dun like about me.. btw, who do u like?
She: hmm?
Me: Dont wanna tell?
She: It's nothing... I just see u as a friend, sry..
Me: u dun think i expect u to say it is me.. are u?
She: i know, im jsut saying, even if i didnt like someone, id still see you as a friend only...

There's no remedy yet for my insecure and emotional feeling.. Everytime, I drop deeper in the oblvion well... After that conversation, she barely chat with me anymore.,.. I feel so heart broken... I want her to save me and pull me up from the oblivion well... that's the only remedy.. she's the only one who can cheer me up...

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Okay, so I'm chronically depressed, perhaps slightly bipolar because sometimes I'm in a manic state sometimes, and I get that way when I'm not around friends or whatever. Unfortunately, I still haven't found a way to combat this, and when it happens I'm listless and can't be entertained by anything. Basically, I just wait it out and sometimes it makes me really irascible, I guess, is the best word. I don't know, I think it's probably happening to me right now. The only thing that helps me, maybe a little is to listen to music, so, I'd recommend that when you're depressed. It can help you before you get too depressed, at least.

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Try smiling. It helps everything. Either that or if you have friends[lol] talk to them, tell them how you feel, most of the time if they have heart, they'll make you feel better. Most of the time it works. But i can't guarantee it.

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i also get my waves of depression and feeling hopeless with life. At least you finished school, I haven't even done that.
Things that could help are excersise, go to a gym or try working out at home. Excersise is the most effective natural cure for minor depression. Or join a martial arts program, something with impact to get your heart moving and push the blood through you veins, that will awaken your brain and mind producing endorphins which are very positive on the human spirit.
Any time I start feeling depressed or low, I get up, and do pull-ups or push ups, or go out and jog. or even head to the gym if I feel there is time for that. Try to avoid sitting around your room alone. Go to a crowded place like a mall. Or go to a bookstore and find a book on a subject you enjoy and start reading for inspiration.
Looking for a job is tough as well, especially here in LA. So don't let the rejection get you down. I have a job, but it doesn't pay well, so I'm out looking for something better as well. But try to approach is positively. If you get declined a job, just say "it wasn't meant to be" and move forward.

well, hope this helps.
take care and good luck.

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Hey,

Speaking about depression...I have had depression for a very long time now, I think was 12 or 13 and am still have it. I had depression due to a crappy childhood where I was neglected and blamed for everything that happened. It started eating me up as I had very less friends because they stayed far so I turned antisocial just sending each and everyday reading books, gardening with my grandfather and watching some T.v. It also did not help that I could not trust people at all and would always push them away mentally as I was scared of being hurt and betrayed.

It had gone to a very critical level when I could not stop thinking about death and I would cry everyday. But then I started reading even more so I guess at the beginning my depression was being cured by my books and the fact that I could trust them in an odd way. I have always been a loner who loved my books and animals more than humans. I at one one point had turned into a misanthrope but then realized in the next few months or so that negativity actually can harm so I took out the word hate out of my dictionary completely and even today if I say that I hate something/somebody I know that It was just an outburst of emotions and I did not mean it.

Nowadays thanks to my partner and trap17 I am slowly getting over my depression coz I keep myself busy all the time so that I have no time to think or complain. I learn the trick was to take things as they come and not let them affect you even if it is a very painful thing. I laugh a lot and am always smiling,

The weirdest thing is that sometimes I can wake up and would want to get out but then suddenly I would not wish to..even if I am healthy and the weather is perfect. It is a part of me where I do not wish to be social and live in my own shell even if it i smothering me

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I've suffered from depression for a little over 2.5 years now...and since starting the medication (Zoloft - sertraline), I've improved tenfold - not only with my depression, but anxiety and confidence and just my general personality! If you need help, don't be afraid to ask for it! (I'm a psych major, what can I say!? lol)

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Ive been suffering from depressions for about 2 years now. Ever since a girl left me for someone else.
Since then ive found it hard to be friends with people around me, instead i shut myself off and do all my talking online.
It's wierd though, the way i trust random people ive never met more than people ive known for years that are close to me.

But luckily for me i have managed to get a job and its kept my mind off things for a while, still feel suicidal sometimes. Specially today for some reason...
I found that talking to a counsellor helped alot, but now ive gotten even worse than before the counsellor.

Tis a vicious circle...

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