I have been diagnosed with major depression. I lost a job that was great for many reasons. because of it and was on disabilty. I have been trying to find a job now but with no luck. my husband filed for a divorce shortly after I lost the job. I should have because he is an alcoholic-not a nice one. I lost my vehicle because he has it now after giving it to me. I am faced with eviction. he won't help me anymore. There are other things , too. I have really tried. I have been in the hospital alot-they just keep you and let you go if you have been 51/50'd. Right now I am as close as i have ever been to not wanting to go on. I am deparate and scared-lossing hope with job prospects and counseling and hospitaliztion and medication don't work. I do't see any other option right now.

It really looks like you are going through a testy time. I understand totally about how you could have a depression getting more severe after all the lousy life events that you are going through right now. I have been there. I am going through it now. I can tell you it is going to pass though. Your husband does not sound like a very good human at all. He could of waited a bit and not bombed you during your very hard time. You can do better than that for sure. Do not give up! The sky stays blue, the sun shines, the clouds rain. It is only human events that can effect us so deeply. This too will pass I promise you. Find a little ray of sunshine and pull onto that ray with all your gumption. The more negative you are the more negative it gets, until it is so hopeless appearing. Please grab that little ray of sunshine and little positive things will start to occur.

And I thought my problems with examinations after I finish school and with girls were worth a depression You are really going through a hard time I can fully agree with itek4u-try to grab some single ray of hope. When I am said I aways listen to my favourite songs no matter what their lyrics are-I mean even depressing lyrics hope a lot . Like for example listen to this one-it really has some good lyrics: Good Charlotte - Hold on . It really helps me hold on . Start thinking about good things, dream when you lay your head to bed Try to see life in a positive way- I know it's really hard but it's worth fighting for! And remember: "That that don't kill me can only make mi stronger!"